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i have abandonment issues. many of my close family members have died and i've lost a few good friends as well (not as in death, just in general). this tends to affect my relationships. however, i have realized that if i'm in a good relationship, it's not as much of an issue because i'm never given a chance to feel all of those negative, panicky, "what if" feelings. but i still try to keep myself in check because i honestly believe that what is meant to be, will be. i know i don't usually act like it, but i do believe that. i'm just bad at letting go.

speaking of abandonment, i started to worry that since i haven't been writing much, youguys will leave me. please don't leave me! *grabs onto blog readers' collective, real yet figurative leg* i've just been busy, and now sick. but i'll be writing regularly again from now on.

and alright. back in '94, i LOVED salt 'n pepa. and there is nothing wrong with continuing to love them. and if they were to put out another album, i would get it. but do we really need a reality show about EVERYTHING?

---> lookie here <---

i mean, seriously. it's been so long since i've seen them that i didn't even recognize them in that picture at first. there doesn't even seem to be an angle. we just follow all kinds of people around with cameras now, like that ryan kid who has his own show on mtv. who IS that kid?? can i have my own show please? i mean i loooove reality television but it's getting absolutely fucking ridiculous. am i wrong?

ah well. i know this was short and sweet but i'll write again soon. and for anyone who was too lazy to click on that link:




yeah.