but what do you do when you DO have an immediate attraction to someone? for me it's really difficult to ignore. i'm always afraid that if i don't let them know right away that i'm interested that i'll lose my chance, because that has happened to me before - more than once. but that way of thinking has gotten me nowhere and will never get me anywhere and all it leads to is confusion, self doubt, anger, and pain. this is where fate comes in. we all have free will, of course. and i always think back to that part of "forrest gump" in which he's trying to figure out whether you decide your own destiny or if everything is already mapped out for you from the beginning. he concludes that it's probably a little bit of both. makes sense. but in the end, i believe that everything happens for a reason and that what will be, will be. que sera, sera. it's just hard to...let go, just let go, when you want something so much. it's hard to wait. i've always had this odd sense that i'm running out of time.
on another note, i like to believe that karma exists, which is why i think it's pointless for us to waste our time on revenge. but in order to truly own that belief, you've got to put positive energy out there. treat others as you'd like to be treated.
i'm not a jesus freak, and i went to catholic school for 13 years which means i know jack shit about the bible, but...
love is patient and kind;
love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude.
love does not insist on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.
love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things. -- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
...how can you argue with that?